It’s been two years since I’ve had a piece of chicken…

1/1/14

Lunch today surprised me so much – chicken thigh with the bone in! I haven’t had a real piece of meat in two years! Praise God! We also had apple pie, greens, white rice with gravy and cornbread. The chicken is so great! I saved the leg to eat tonight with my eggs and toast. I saved the apple pie to eat later with my milk.

 I can't believe how much I miss fried chicken, or just real meat...

I can’t believe how much I miss fried chicken, or just real meat…

I pray we go outside tomorrow. I truly need some fresh air, and more space to move around.
In this new room  I only have about 30 or 40 square feet to move around in.

This is for 23 hours a day for five days straight, but as it is too cold for the outside rec with no coats, I am usually in this tiny space for 24 hours for eight to ten days at a time; sometimes longer. I think it has been almost two weeks since it was warm enough to try to go outside.

I’m going to ask for another pair of pants tonight. I’ve had the same pair for two weeks now. They let us change out once a week on Wednesdays, but I don’t want to switch them out until I have to. I was such a proud man and hard on everyone. Yes, your love was always there. Thank God He put you in my life. God has a purpose for all this suffering, Rochelle. We just need to wait patiently for God. This process is all part of God’s plan.

1/2/14
Your visit was so great; I have missed the boys so. They are growing so fast! You looked very happy.
Did I tell you that dad sent me a Christmas card? Everyone in the pictures looked so great. You have been doing such a good job of raising our boys on your own. God has been guiding you well.

1/3/14
I got all the information from the transcripts you requested, and got it ready and sent it on to the lawyer. I also noticed that during the past week, the lights have been staying off in the mornings until 6:00 a.m. with breakfast being served after that. God is so great! Your grievances is being used by God as a way to make change. We have also been served a little more at our meals.

I’ve been reviewing your complaint to CPS, and you’ve covered most everything. You have such a goo memory, there were just a few errors in time, but it’s so hard when we can’t talk on the phone or even face to face, just through glass. I know it is hard to remember things and then run to the car and write them down, or write questions to me on your arm before you come in to visit; and then the visits are only once or twice a month. There’s so much against us, I don’t see how you get anything done.

I’m wrapped up in four sheets and three waffle blankets. If we could have a quilt or cover it would make a big difference. The cement is so cold when it’s cold outside. We still do not have warm air through the vents.

They just threw my grievance back in my cell from the charge on 12/13, saying that they would refund the cost of this med call. But, only one follow up is allowed per fourteen days of a visit. Well, my first sick call was in July, and the others were due to the lack of care post-op.

I got my shower a little while ago and traded for some more coffee. I feel a little warmer, and can try again to write my story to CPS. It is harder to do than I thought it would be, to relive all of the injustice that happened to our family.

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God’s plan may not make sense right now…

12/12/13
We are more connected now beyond what most can understand.
Reading your last letter put me there with you and our boys.
I could feel Nate’s pain through each word you wrote.
I wept so hard for him, as I felt his pain.
It never gets easier to bear. But, you and I truly did our best.
If nothing else, it was mostly my fault. I felt so bad because we’d had no choice but to send DJ back to that hellhole with his mother. We just couldn’t get any help from the mental health system.
There is never enough to go around for these kids(kids with special needs), as the funding is always cut to line someone else’s pockets further up the chain.

I was just blinded by wanting to show Daniel Jr. love; I needed him to see that I cared for him. I was so excited about being a project manager, having a job ‘back home’ after being up north for that time away from Southern people and family; it felt like a new start.
I also didn’t want him to feel the way that my dad made me feel, that I was nothing, worthless…
When we moved back to North Carolina, I had hoped that perhaps we could start over, maybe do family therapy, try again to get some help and find out what exactly had been going on. We just didn’t know.
There was so much confusion, and Carolyn always kept the older kids riled up and starting things at home; it was hard to keep things calm.
Nothing I can say will change what happened, I just pray to God, for it all.

I pray, for all of my children to receive healing. There is nothing I can do in here, but pray, the hurt is so strong knowing that we just weren’t fully aware of the extent of the damage that was occurring. God forgive DJ for doing those acts, and I pray Veronica, Nate and Alex will learn to lean on the Lord to give them hope. Their faith will grow as ours has, and even though God’s plan may not make sense right now, it will in time, according to His purpose. Nothing I can say, as a man can make anything right. My love has become so much stronger knowing Jesus’ love is so much more than we can understand. I wish I could hold all of them, my children, and give them comfort where there is none, and let them feel their daddy’s love again. May they feel God’s love around them, giving them comfort.

They are still tearing off the holiday stickers that you put on my envelopes. But, at least they aren’t marking out the bible verses you write on them. I am listening to the Christmas shoe song. It always makes me cry to hear that. I miss my mom so much. She never had much, but she always tried to give more than she had. Those little gifts meant so much to her to be able to give to her children and grandchildren. It wasn’t the toy that mattered, it was what was in her heart. She was so giving!
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Complaint to the NC Bar, 2012, Unanswered, 2 years later

Complaint to the North Carolina Bar, 2012, continued explanation of prosecutorial misconduct of Maury Hubbard, III
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Concealment of Material Facts. – Intentionally encouraging the concealment of material facts relevant to the identity of the driver in a driving under the influence prosecution is prejudicial to the administration of justice. Such conduct raises serious doubts as to the attorney’s desire to bring about a just result in such a prosecution and adversely reflects on the attorney’s fitness to practice law. North Carolina State Bar v. Graves , 50 N.C. App. 450, 274 S.E.2d 396 (1981).

1. One example of how Mr. Hubbard violated the Rules of Conduct through leading the witnesses. The extent to which he does this not only involves dishonesty, but also serious interference with the administration of justice. As the Prosecution only had one witness upon which they based their entire presentation, it was crucial that the jury believe the credibility of the investigators to determine my guilt or innocence, as well as to corroborate with Veronica’s allegations. However, when it came time to testify, the official investigators of the case, Detective Short and CPS investigator Marcel Edwards, could not even remember key elements of the case.

Ms. Edward’s testimony begins on p.378 of the third set of transcripts, (see enclosed). By the time the transcriptionist gets to the second page (379)of the testimony, (document 15)Mr. Hubbard is leading the witness. See lines 4,5, she doesn’t even remember the year in which the case was opened. The farther Ms. Edwards gets into her testimony, the more difficulty she has. (See p.387). Document 16 Lines 5 – 13. In an attempt to save face if the assistant DA is going to salvage Ms. Edward’s credibility, he asks the Court, “may she retrieve her bag?” She then goes down, comes back up with some notes. Then, on line 16 he asks to approach the witness. At this point, he sits down on Ms. Edward’s arm rest, and begins pointing at the places he wants her to read. We never hear real testimony by the witness. Hubbard is leading the investigator the entire time. He obviously does not trust the witness to speak for herself, which keeps the juror from hearing from the real witness.
The jurors then are not able to be allowed an unbiased chance to evaluate her testimony. He even comments on and admits to her having complete access to her notes, lines 19-23:
Referring to your-your notes of your interview with Veronica, does that refresh your recollection as to any details that Veronica provided about what happened to her during the course of – of the interview? Yes, very much.

On the next page, he clearly has created “a pattern of Asking improperly Leading Questions,”(State vs. Collins, Forrest Scott, S. 058537) See p. 387, Line 25, p. 388 lines 1-25
And did she provide more information than what you just told the jury? Yes. Would you relate to the jury having refreshed your recollection what – what she actually told you? Veronica stated that approximately three years ago when she lived in Pennsylvania….She stated that it took place six or seven months after I think she had arrived in North Carolina. (Lines 11-13) Ms. Bailey: I’m going to object to her reading her notes to refresh – The Court: Sustained.
Clearly one can see the impropriety of Mr. Hubbard’s line of questioning. It is a point of fact that Ms. Edwards goes to her bag to retrieve her notes. There is no way this information was part of the submitted evidence. Stating precedent in (People vs. Parks (1971) 4 Cal.3d 955, 960-961), “Statements which have no independent basis of admissibility may not be introduced under the guise of refreshing a witness’ memory.” If it is necessary to refresh the memory of a witness through the use of a prior recorded statement, that statement should not be read aloud before the jury,(State vs. Collins, p.13)
We can see that the witness’ credibility is going downhill, and she continues to read from her notes, and the Court on line 18 of the same page directs her to “Summarize”. This continues on p. 389, as Mr. Hubbard asks a second time to approach the witness, line 9. At this point, he leans over Ms. Edwards and points to where he wants her to read, Line 11, Referring you to your- to this portion of your report…

It is quite unlikely that Mr. Hubbard could have gotten the same information from Ms. Edwards had he not been leading and directing. It was if he were testifying for Ms. Edwards, as she mainly recited what he pointed to her to read, instead of allowing her to exhaust her own personal memory. This goes beyond harmless error because Mr. Hubbard’s intention was to simply repeat earlier testimony that would inflame or incite the jury, rather than furthering the cause of justice. Mr. Hubbard’s persistence in having Ms. Edward’s simple recitation of what was already stated previously deprives me of my 5th Amendment Right to due process, which equates to “fundamental fairness”. That includes the right of having a person or panel making the final decision over the proceedings be impartial in regards to the matter before them.

…to be continued…..