You have brought me out of a pit

12/19/13
I feel God’s presence even more, as I work to get past feelings of negativity and doom.
I now see things in a different light. There is a new perspective and a way of looking
at what is sightly to God, not my own selfishness.

I will start a draft for the CPS complaint you told me to write so they are forced to see
the results of their falsified and incomplete findings. Guilford County must be made to rectify their illegal and unconstitutional decisions. They just say whatever they like on reports and then alter the truth to meet their own agendas of increasing their bonuses and trying to justify their funding, instead of looking fully at what is happening in the entire picture. They are never forced to see the repercussions caused by their mistakes and lack of training, even altering what they report to make themselves seem in a better light, while other children are receiving no help that they so sorely need.

They actually gave us a Christmas bad today – with ramen noodles, some chips, a rice krispy treat, a Snickers bar, and a Slim Jim type stick, as well as a granola bar. To some this would seem laughable, but to those in isolation who are not allowed to purchase ANY extra food items, it’s a huge treat!

I got your card today, and it reaffirmed what my humanness needed – a confirmation of love. I ask your forgiveness, you’ve been so strong! Please forgive my unbelief, how could I ever doubt? Your cards and letters have brought me out of a pit where I continue to throw myself and hide. My whole heart melted reading your card! With God’s strength I will build my self worth.
I thank God for a wife such as you! Even as they’ve torn the whole back off of the envelope due to your colorful stickers of angels on it.

Being indigent, I have to make my meals draw out longer, and I try to win as many stamps as I can, and hopefully they will give me a pair of shower shoes. Oh, and I have to send home most of my court papers and old mail as I am toting around so much stuff, and I can get in trouble. Just put the mail up, and get it out as you wish to write a book about all of this. It would make a great romance novel!

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Complaint to the NC Bar, 2012, Unanswered, 2 years later

Complaint to the North Carolina Bar, 2012, continued explanation of prosecutorial misconduct of Maury Hubbard, III
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Concealment of Material Facts. – Intentionally encouraging the concealment of material facts relevant to the identity of the driver in a driving under the influence prosecution is prejudicial to the administration of justice. Such conduct raises serious doubts as to the attorney’s desire to bring about a just result in such a prosecution and adversely reflects on the attorney’s fitness to practice law. North Carolina State Bar v. Graves , 50 N.C. App. 450, 274 S.E.2d 396 (1981).

1. One example of how Mr. Hubbard violated the Rules of Conduct through leading the witnesses. The extent to which he does this not only involves dishonesty, but also serious interference with the administration of justice. As the Prosecution only had one witness upon which they based their entire presentation, it was crucial that the jury believe the credibility of the investigators to determine my guilt or innocence, as well as to corroborate with Veronica’s allegations. However, when it came time to testify, the official investigators of the case, Detective Short and CPS investigator Marcel Edwards, could not even remember key elements of the case.

Ms. Edward’s testimony begins on p.378 of the third set of transcripts, (see enclosed). By the time the transcriptionist gets to the second page (379)of the testimony, (document 15)Mr. Hubbard is leading the witness. See lines 4,5, she doesn’t even remember the year in which the case was opened. The farther Ms. Edwards gets into her testimony, the more difficulty she has. (See p.387). Document 16 Lines 5 – 13. In an attempt to save face if the assistant DA is going to salvage Ms. Edward’s credibility, he asks the Court, “may she retrieve her bag?” She then goes down, comes back up with some notes. Then, on line 16 he asks to approach the witness. At this point, he sits down on Ms. Edward’s arm rest, and begins pointing at the places he wants her to read. We never hear real testimony by the witness. Hubbard is leading the investigator the entire time. He obviously does not trust the witness to speak for herself, which keeps the juror from hearing from the real witness.
The jurors then are not able to be allowed an unbiased chance to evaluate her testimony. He even comments on and admits to her having complete access to her notes, lines 19-23:
Referring to your-your notes of your interview with Veronica, does that refresh your recollection as to any details that Veronica provided about what happened to her during the course of – of the interview? Yes, very much.

On the next page, he clearly has created “a pattern of Asking improperly Leading Questions,”(State vs. Collins, Forrest Scott, S. 058537) See p. 387, Line 25, p. 388 lines 1-25
And did she provide more information than what you just told the jury? Yes. Would you relate to the jury having refreshed your recollection what – what she actually told you? Veronica stated that approximately three years ago when she lived in Pennsylvania….She stated that it took place six or seven months after I think she had arrived in North Carolina. (Lines 11-13) Ms. Bailey: I’m going to object to her reading her notes to refresh – The Court: Sustained.
Clearly one can see the impropriety of Mr. Hubbard’s line of questioning. It is a point of fact that Ms. Edwards goes to her bag to retrieve her notes. There is no way this information was part of the submitted evidence. Stating precedent in (People vs. Parks (1971) 4 Cal.3d 955, 960-961), “Statements which have no independent basis of admissibility may not be introduced under the guise of refreshing a witness’ memory.” If it is necessary to refresh the memory of a witness through the use of a prior recorded statement, that statement should not be read aloud before the jury,(State vs. Collins, p.13)
We can see that the witness’ credibility is going downhill, and she continues to read from her notes, and the Court on line 18 of the same page directs her to “Summarize”. This continues on p. 389, as Mr. Hubbard asks a second time to approach the witness, line 9. At this point, he leans over Ms. Edwards and points to where he wants her to read, Line 11, Referring you to your- to this portion of your report…

It is quite unlikely that Mr. Hubbard could have gotten the same information from Ms. Edwards had he not been leading and directing. It was if he were testifying for Ms. Edwards, as she mainly recited what he pointed to her to read, instead of allowing her to exhaust her own personal memory. This goes beyond harmless error because Mr. Hubbard’s intention was to simply repeat earlier testimony that would inflame or incite the jury, rather than furthering the cause of justice. Mr. Hubbard’s persistence in having Ms. Edward’s simple recitation of what was already stated previously deprives me of my 5th Amendment Right to due process, which equates to “fundamental fairness”. That includes the right of having a person or panel making the final decision over the proceedings be impartial in regards to the matter before them.

…to be continued…..

Part 1 -Formal Complaint to the NC Bar

The following posts are excerpts mailed from prison in North Carolina in a formal grievance against the assistant DA in Greensboro, NC who should be charged with extreme prosecutorial misconduct and should be dis-barred. It has been almost TWO years since it was written, but still no full response from the North Carolina Bar except that they are in a deluge of complaints and to seek legal action. Hmmm…everyone is waiting for the other one to come forward and make a decision to help us, but no one is really DOING anything…
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January 10, 2012

THE GRIEVANCE COMMITTEE OFFICE
THE NORTH CAROLINA STATE BAR
PO BOX 25900
RALEIGH, NC 27611

To the Committee:

My name is Daniel Edward Palacios, opus number 1248101. I have enclosed as an addendum these additions to a list of grievances previously mailed to your office. They lie with the assistant DA, Maury Al Hubbard, III in the case of –

NORTH CAROLINA IN THE GENERAL COURT OF JUSTICE
SUPERIOR COURT DIVISION
GUILFORD COUNTY File Nos.: 10 CRS 66769—72
STATE OF NORTH CAROLINA
vs. DANIEL EDWARD PALACIOS, Defendant

-that have led to my being wrongfully convicted and sentenced to 123 years in prison.

In looking over case law, the transcripts of this trial, and the Code of Ethics that every licensed attorney swears to uphold, here are my issues of grievance (only including aspects of conduct that I felt negatively affected my trial):
I. Excessive bail stemming from Racial Discrimination/Profiling (Constitutional Amend.8 and Title 18, 871 extortion).
II. 3.3 Candor Toward the Tribunal
a. the lawyer must not allow the tribunal to be misled by false statements of material fact or law or evidence that the lawyer knows to be false. (Amendment 5 –Right to Due Process)
III. Rule 3.8 Special Responsibilities of a Prosecutor
a. Responsibility of a Minister of Justice
b. A prosecutor should not intentionally avoid pursuit of evidence
IV. Rule 4.1 Truthfulness in Statements to Others
V. Rule 4.4 Respect for Rights of Third Persons
VI. Rule 8.4 Misconduct–leading to egregious prosecutorial misconduct
VII. Prosecutorial Misconduct in Closing Arguments
VIII. Felonious Obstruction of Justice

I. Excessive bail (stemming from racial discrimination/profiling) The Eighth Amendment provides:
Excessive bail shall not be required, nor excessive fines imposed, nor cruel and unusual punishments inflicted.
In Stack v. Boyle, 342 U.S. 1 (1951), the Court found that a defendant’s bail cannot be set higher than an amount that is reasonably likely to ensure the defendant’s presence at the trial. In Stack, the Court found bail of $50,000 to be excessive, given the limited financial resources of the defendants and a lack of evidence that they were likely to flee before trial.
See also, G.S. 15A-534(a) requires that (except in capital cases) one of the following four conditions of pretrial release must be imposed(omitted 1,2,3 for brevity)
(4) Require the execution of an appearance bond secured by a cash deposit of the full amount of the bond, by a mortgage pursuant to G.S. 58-74-5, or by a solvent surety.
The judicial official setting conditions of pretrial release may impose condition (4) if, and only if, one of the other three conditions of pretrial release (a) will not reasonably assure the appearance of the defendant as required; (b) will pose a danger of injury to any person; or (c) is likely to result in destruction of evidence, subornation of perjury, or intimidation of potential witnesses. If condition (4) is imposed the judicial official must record the reasons for so doing in writing. Other statutes apply in limited specific circumstances (see § III, B, infra)
Mr. Hubbard argued at my arraignment that I was a flight risk and might flee to Chicago as I had family there. However, from the time that Veronica made the allegations on October 15, 2009 until the date which I volunteered to turn myself in, January 29, 2010, I had done nothing to meet the conditions necessary to condition 4. I had not lived in Cooke County, Illinois, since I was seven years old. From the time period of 1978 unto the present, I had only visited that area twice.

“There is no crueler tyranny than that which is exercised under cover of law, and with the colors of justice …”
– U.S. v. Jannotti, 673 F.2d 578, 614 (3d Cir. 1982)

There was nothing to suggest that I was a “flight risk”, as he claimed. I had a deeply rooted claim to the community, as I ran an asphalt plant within 15 minutes of my home, we as a family of 8 had lived in the Alamance County/Guilford County area for over seven years, and my mother, father and siblings lived in the surrounding counties. Except for moving up north due to a job offer after losing my job in the APAC takeover, I have lived in North Carolina for twenty nine years. I trusted the justice system, following every condition that was placed upon me, and then turned myself in, knowing that I was innocent and had not done the things Veronica alleged.

The result of this excessive bail has been that, once I was incarcerated, my wife’s reputation had been ruined, as will be explained below, and she had no way to produce an income, as all of her recent education and training was in the field of daycare. She lost almost everything we had, our home, our vehicle, our friends, support of family, and was therefore not able to pay off the $7,500. balance owed on the original bail amount of over $18,000.

This will lead to cruel and unusual punishment:
Such punishment as would amount to torture or barbarity, any cruel and degrading punishment not known to the Common Law, or any fine, penalty, confinement, or treatment that is so disproportionate to the offense as to shock the moral sense of the community.
For, at this point, even if I am granted a re-trial, my wife will have to add the previous balance on top of any bail requirement that court decides upon. She will also not have any collateral to put up on my behalf, and will not have anyone to co-sign, because my family members defaulted on their part of the bond agreement, because they didn’t think they had to keep paying if I was incarcerated.

I will not be able to continue gathering the multitude of evidence discussed below because I will continue to be behind bars. I will not be able to help provide for my wife and children, who have suffered greatly for the grievances I am describing in this letter.

The 10 – plus thousand dollars we paid in regards to my bond in 2010-2011 could have been spent in procuring necessary evidence to procure alibi and supporting evidence as to the past credibility to the main witness. We could have subpoenaed a myriad of psychological evaluations done by both therapists and schools over the years, as well as her medical records showing we always matched her up to a female pediatrician in case she needed someone to talk to because of her early menarche and all of the side effects that can entail for a young woman.

We were so concerned with Veronica’s behaviors and need for therapeutic assistance that we kept her in therapy from 2002-2008. In 2006, the time she claims the sexual abuse started, we actually had set up for her to have an intensive case manager, who visited her at school and at home on a weekly basis. She was often alone with Veronica in the house while I was at work, as I worked mostly at night in Pennsylvania. Also during this same time period, there was an intensive in-home team comprised of two women, who also interacted with Veronica and the boys twice a week, whose documentation my wife included in her grievance. These records, along with my work records could have been paid for by us, if we weren’t tied to such an excessive, discriminately created bail.

Below is a list of therapists and other facilities whose records could have been subpoenaed. I could have even travelled to the states in question to work on getting past friends to perhaps come and testify on my behalf, including Veronica’s horse riding instructor, as I even bought a horse for Veronica and my wife while in Maryland, and my wife personally paid for her riding lessons after school for almost six months, so she could be around other girls in the afternoons, and have positive interactions with to help her with her behavior issues.

1995/1996 – Medical records from Eden Hospital that showed where I took Veronica to the ER on weekend visits with me due to her having recurring yeast infections. My then girlfriend, Shann, noticed that Veronica acted oddly when being bathed, and was afraid she was being molested. The infections pointed to that, as well.
2001 – records from my urologist, Dr. Brian Cope, who performed my vasectomy –Veronica testified to my discharge, yet with my vasectomy I have very little discharge, especially nothing “white” as she describes in more than one investigation and certainly not enough to fit truthfully with her description of me after ‘sex’
2002 – Gary Bailey, social worker, Alamance County, to help children with our underlying suspicion that Daniel Jr and Veronica and been sexually abused and were perpetrating on each other
2003- Family Support Center, Greensboro, NC
2005-Child Guidance Resource Center, Coatesville, PA; we worked with three or four different psychologists while working with them; Veronica received a case manager there, Julie Ulline, who worked with Veronica both in the home in the afternoon, as well as visiting her at East Vincent where she attended in 2006; she received a diagnosis, she and the other children went to a summer camp for children with behavior issues
2005 – attempted commitment for her and Daniel Jr at Brandywine Hospital for behavioral issues, some sexually related; School evaluation done on Veronica for behaviors such as stealing, lying and bullying
2006- Community Services of Devereux – Veronica and Nicholas had an out-patient therapist who is now the director, Dr. Potter
Looking over Document 20, there is a plethora of information in regards to the behavioral issues we encountered over the years with Veronica. This includes excerpts from the psychological evaluation we had done while Veronica was attending East Vincent Elementary while we lived in Chester Springs.
Please note p.2 which shows her ratings in Aggression, Conduct Problems, as well as Externalizing Problems, Depression, Atypicality, Externalizing problems and Adaptability. Veronica needed a great deal of help with her behaviors and emotional state. She tested at-risk in all of these areas or clinically significant.

On page 3, her teacher noted, “that social situations are often strained…she often overreacts and speaks harshly…
p.4 Needs improvement in …practice self-control, express feelings in acceptable ways, follow school and classroom rules…
Fourth grade teacher notes, “At times, she became emotional and her temper was shown. She had some problems socially.”
p.8 “ The teacher rated her within the clinically significant range in the areas of Aggression, and in the at-risk range on hyperactivity and conduct problems…Some of the behaviors that inflated these scales include:…argues when denied her own way, loses temper easily, disobeys; lies; sneaks around;
behaviors of concern noted by teacher…“seems out of touch with reality; acts confused.”
p.13 notes the teacher’s rating scales
2007- Family therapy out-patient on Hwy 4 in Maryland records; receipt from Lusby, MD community center where we paid for her and a friend to take a self-dense class because Veronica said her friends’ step-dad had been abusing her, he wouldn’t allow her to take the class with Veronica.
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to be continued

I wonder if they miss us

I truly miss our family. Even with all of the problems.

I had a dream last night that I was out of seg and had a visitor.

I entered the busy visitation room with all of the noise and bustle, and looked all around for you.

Then I heard, “Daddy”! I turned around and there she was, even though I knew immediately.

She had that same squeal just as she used to when I came home from work.

It seemed so real to see her, and she had brought a young man with her, as well.

I wonder if she was thinking about me; if she and my other two sons miss all of the things we used to do as a family, all of the trips and soccer games and wrestling with her brothers and riding her horse, the trips to the beach you’d save up for so we could all go, the times we’d drive to the mountains of NC and cut down our own Christmas tree and drink hot cider and spend the night. It all seems so far away and dreamlike, now.

I miss my children, Shel. All of them. Even after all of the trouble, hurt and pain they have caused; they have been through so much. When I would throw them all around in the pool, she would do the same thing.

It is so hard to be in this position, of hurt, anger and love, and then the misery of being here, the alienation of it all. I wonder if the nightmare will ever end.

I got a copy of the two grievances you wrote and posted to each of the administrative emails, as well as the governor today.

I know I have to keep writing these sick calls, and these requests for my long johns, but it feels so hopeless. The requests never go anywhere. I can’t even have a chair, for Pete’s sake. Would that be so hard to do? I am not violent. The throbbing doesn’t ever go fully away, and the pain is still too sharp after I start to stretch or do any exercise. And, now, in addition to all of my clothes I am lying under seven sheets and 2 blankets. I still haven’t gotten any help with the sick call from November 14th. So, they say I must write another request. I filled out another 490 for the long johns.

Well, later they led me out of here in hand cuffs, a belly chain and foot shackles to medical tonight just before 10 p.m. They took my blood pressure through 2 shirt jackets, 3 shirts, and I wonder how accurate that will be! The lead nurse started asking questions about my level of pain, which I said changes depending on whether or not I try to move. All they do is have me to lie down and mash a little around the now closed incision, and tell me that I am fine. They are doing no internal diagnostics.

I couldn’t believe they were doing anything at all, so I asked if they were seeing me because of a letter that had been written on my behalf. Of course they say, ‘no’.  If so, why was I being seen this late at night, and not by the regular day shift? I asked to see my blood work results, but all they say is that it was ‘fine’.  I asked how I could still be this cold, but they never have and answer.

It’s obvious that your calls and letters/emails are making them very uncomfortable. I just want you to know that what you are doing is great. Don’t lose heart…

Good morning. Well, I was taken once more to medical, at 9 a.m. and they wouldn’t allow me to wear my shirt jackets to walk through the prison. Another new, arbitrary rule to keep us confused, I guess. My temperature is again below normal, 97.5. I told the doctor that I still had odd swelling, and he says I could have issues for up to six months. This makes no sense. I told him that it was nothing like this before, and the pain seems to be coming from all over.

I asked him for help with the long johns, as medical has to write them up, and he said there would not be any coming from medical. I looked at the nurse who knew that she had just told you recently that the 490 had to be written from medical and then the doctor said medical was not in the business of handing out thermals. I guess this is retaliation for your writing the medical grievance. Even the CO couldn’t believe it. So, here I am, back in my cell, cold, and there are other inmates with 490s for thermals.

Well, I didn’t get my package so   tried to sleep, but couldn’t. The guys were all opening their food packages, and the ones that didn’t have them were trying to trade with the others.  I received your card and letters. They make me cry. It’s been s hard to be away from you. I have been so emotional. You have been such a blessing.

May God be part of your Every Decision

 I hope you and the readers don’t mind that I just seem to jump from topic to topic. I work so hard to stay focused in here, but it gets so hard at times. I never thought this was going to be as bad it is becoming.  I read the bible, and all of the things you send me, but there’s so little to occupy my time. It would be so great if some folks would write to me. I don’t mind answering any questions, or just corresponding. Will you give them my address?  I enjoy looking at the blog excerpts you send me, and am really surprised that people are reading this. I just do the best I can to get through these days, and to learn all I can so as to be a better person and to make a difference in the world and to help my children heal, as God allows us to reconnect.

Let’s see, today.November 23rd, I’ve been in here 84 days. It has been great to at least hear what is going on in the world through others. The Tarheels won today, 8-20, a football game! Appalachian State also did great 24-0 against WNCU at halftime.

I put in yet another request form for medical to let me have thermals. I just stay cold in here, and with the pain, it is bad. They are the only one who can administer the 490 for them. I just took a shower and feel so much better. I don’t understand why they won’t let us bathe everyday. They have plenty of personnel to do so. I mean, I do understand that it is a form of punishment, but to what end? I’m hungry, and have one more peanut butter and jelly sandwich, so will eat that here at 10 p.m. and write more later…

11/24/13

I was listening to 106.9 and the Christian music has more power than ever before, for some reason. I started crying this morning listening, just raising my hands, swaying back and forth and singing. It was so meaningful to hear God’s word, and to feel His love filling my heart. Without Him, I’d not have the strength to continue. I can do nothing in my own strength. I will fail every time, but realizing this and confessing this to God, believing in his Son will give me true strength and power. This truly lifts my Spirit, which is the power of Jesus in me.

The after affects of this entire incident from August 31 has been horrible. I now see that they’ve added 15, yes 15 years to my sentence because I didn’t want to suffocate in a prison cell, and asked for a CO to do something about the lack of moving air, and they’ve given me 24 points. I will be forced to do almost a year in isolation and continued to be punished for two or three more years afterward!

I still can’t over being so cold…I am in a building and have to wear 3 shirts, 2 shirt jackets, and pants, and my feet are still cold!

I just want to wish you all a wonderful Thanksgiving, and be sure to be thankful for all that you have-there’s always someone out there doing far worse. I will continue to write more of what God is teaching me in my next letters. May God be part of your every decision.

Trust Him, and He will not fail you!

Yes, I miss being beside you

missing-someone11/17/13
Dear Shel,
Losing your wallet was God’s way of telling you to slow down. You can’t hear God’s voice when rushing

all over the place. You seem to find peace when you draw, and God’s gift of art comes through.
Be sure to get some rest. You always get cranky when you don’t. You always possessed so much strength, courage, and persistence. Now, work on consistency and stability. These ‘scars’ have made you stronger and smarter. I’ve never really known you to be afraid. Even as you gave birth to our first child, you just seemed confused as how to get him out! God is by your side, helping you with the task at hand, so gain strength knowing He is there!

No, I haven’t been able to order any food from canteen since September 18, mom’s birthday. What they feed me here in isolation isn’t near enough for a grown man, but I just keep going, doing my best not to think about the hunger pains. I will work on getting more coffee, , but for now have a piece of bread and some applesauce and a few apples for later.

I miss being beside you at night. You would always keep me so warm that I would have to come out of the covers; sometimes you would steal them all…
Yes, I agree that this is such a waste of precious time when we could be together, with our boys, doing things in the world to make a difference. It is also a way, though, for us to cling to each other through these trials, to see the true value of each other as individuals, and as a unit. God works in mysterious ways! We must each learn at our own pace, and God is patient with us. It will work according to his plan!

I ponder hours on our reunion. That’s all I will say. Reading what you write make it so real for me in a place where there is no touching, feeling, smelling or holding another. It makes one become less than human. ..you’ve always been a beautiful woman; I was always proud to be your husband. You have a glow about you. It makes this place seem less cold when you visit, even behind the concrete and glass.

There’s No One but God to ask for help in here

 KJV Exodus 23:25.  And ye shall serve the LORD your God, and he shall bless thy bread, and thy water; and I will take sickness away from the midst of thee.  - King James Bible

KJV Exodus 23:25.
And ye shall serve the LORD your God, and he shall bless thy bread, and thy water; and I will take sickness away from the midst of thee.
– King James Bible

11-2-13

I love the way your letters smell! (Do I tell you this every time?)
These lights are very bright; get woken up every day, the same time, with lights burning on and time for feed (4:30). I hate the way they turn these lights on, and then off(10 p.m.)
It has been cold today. I wish I could get a shirt jacket. They don’t want to give or do anything to help us. at all. I’m even wearing two shirts, two pairs of socks, and pants. I’ve felt down all day due to this coldness.
I’m trying to find a way to get some Q-tips, ink pens, and Lever 2000 soap. That means I have to look for someone who has just come into seg before they see the DHO. Then, I will also have to buy it. The little state bar they give us doesn’t really work, and makes my whole body break out.

When we ‘fish’ and it is far away, we have to work together to get it from one place to another. Then when they get back to regular population, it’s each for himself.

11/3/13

I finished writing both of the boys a letter. I worry about how you are holding it together, and if they will have to be sent away. They have been through so much, and are holding it together as good as they can, but they could straighten up a lot of their behavior.

It is still sooo cold, but mainly my feet, even with two pairs of socks. I wish I could figure it out; it’s not like me to not be able to get warm.

11/14/13

I’ve not been well in mind.  I thought I was just being depressed, but at day 75, I am slowly losing my feel on things.

I have to get closer to God, strengthen my relationship with Him so I can hear Him speak. I think now that I am being attacked to keep that from happening. Just as Daniel prayed and fasted for 20 days before the archangel Michael was able to break through to deliver God’s message to him.

The nurse came today, along with the doctor. They came because I wrote a request form for more Ibuprofen because of the pain. He looked at my incision and said it was healing well. He asked me where it hurt, and was poking around and he just said that sometimes nerves are hit and it takes longer to heal. He’s going to prescribe some more pain medicine, like Advil. I asked him why I was staying so cold; I explained that I’d never had this feeling before I lost all of the blood after surgery. He said he would have my blood looked at to see if I was anemic. Sounds like they already knew that’s what had happened, but they just weren’t going to do anything about it.

I’ve asked for vitamins because I feel so lethargic. I just don’t feel like myself. I miss you so much. It makes me cry. The loneliness is starting to really think in. I guess. Louvonda wrote me a letter and said my package request was rejected, and they sent her back her money. The lawyer has called her to say that the investigator was sick, and that was why he wasn’t reporting anything back.

I still haven’t received anything for the pain, and I have the shakes and my head pounds. Don’t know what is going on, maybe I have a fever. I only have God to ask for help…