About – An Honest Man’s Views on God, love and life behind bars

I was just an every day Latino, struggling to make ends meet, raising five kids because my ex-wife didn’t. She was angry because I remarried and we had to get custody of our three together, and then made it her life’s occupation to ruin my new life, and destroy me.

I was accused of horrible things, racially profiled, there was no evidence against me, and I wasn’t even allowed a defense forensic expert on my behalf. The trial was rigged, and we didn’t have the money for a lawyer because my wife lost her job due to the accusations, and I wasn’t allowed to be alone with my own kids after that. Between her not working, and my large bail due to racial profiling, as well as the courts mixing my charges up with another man’s, we were losing it all.

So, here I sit, currently in isolation, almost three years later, still fighting to get out because I refused to lie and say I was guilty, just to get 112 years taken off of my railroad cars, 114 years long.

I’ve learned a great deal about myself, society, and the world at large.

I keep fighting, but it’s an uphill battle.

Just call me 113.

(Please understand that people isolation can’t purchase toothpaste, much less have computer access. This is written by Chicano’s wife, discussing items as he would, and does when they meet twice a month, and in letters, which are posted here to testify as to how people are not treated as human in most North Carolina prisons. She transcribes his letters and shares your comments with him. ..We love and welcome any questions or comments. Our two year old complaint to the North Carolina Bar, which has yet to be answered, is included in six segments here so you can see all of the fallacies in the ‘case’ that Child Protective Services created against us, as well as the lack of an honest trial or any chance of getting justice with the amount of discrimination, prosecutorial misconduct, the ineffective counsel and threats.

This state’s system is in the Stone Ages, and never before has anything about this particular prison been publically available.)


16 thoughts on “About – An Honest Man’s Views on God, love and life behind bars

  1. Got your post on my blog. Thanks so much for reading. I would love to sponsor you for a Project Love candidate! I am having trouble finding inmates to sponsor and people to support and participate in the events. Spread the word to other inmates about the organization and blog. The other inmates family can also visit us for updates on Facebook. The more support I can get the bigger this will get. I love your blog and have been reading ever since I saw you liked a few of my blog posts. Hope to hear from you soon!

  2. Just reading out to your in regards to the comment on my blog. Thank you so much for reading it! I would love to sponsor you or any of your fellow inmates for Project Love! I am having trouble finding inmates to sponsor and people to support the organization and pariticipate in the events. Spread the word about the organization and blog! Also, family can visit and follow us on FB for daily and weekly updates about events. I love your blog by the way, I have been reading it ever since you liked something on my blog! I hope to hear from you soon!

  3. Hi, your reply on my blog to my question saying that I wasn’t sure I was making a difference, made so much sense. Although it was not my original intention to make people think about things “a gift that most people don’t know how to open” in many ways I suppose that is what I am doing. I can’t thank you enough and express enough how much your comment meant to me, there could be a thousand people press the like button but one heartfelt comment means so much more. It seems that the blog world is very ego based, much like life. It seems that people judge eachothers blogs based on how many followers they’ve got. Yet I know of a few excellent blogs, this one included, who are writing amazing stuff and yet there doesn’t seem to be many people listening. I can only hope that the people who do read the excellent blogs are inspired and then in turn make a difference.
    You are right in saying that people don’t appreciate what they have and the beauty that surrounds them and also you mentioned humour and how you wouldn’t of survived without it. To me humour is so important and yet there seems to be a distinct lack of it at times in blog world. I am still thinking deeply about the gift you gave me and how best to use it, I will not waste it. Wow I’ve just noticed out my window a rainbow as I’m writing this to you, there are miracles everywhere. It’s a good sign.
    Take good care of yourself my friend, you are in my thoughts and once more thank you for your amazing inspiring words.

  4. I’m sorry to hear of your wrongful imprisonment, though I realize how insignificant those words must sound to you. Thankfully when my children’s father waged that sort of campaign against me, the allegations (while false) were not serious enough to send me to prison. Now they are all grown, and I am out that part of being a parent. With your permission, I will add you to my daily prayers, and will pray everything works out for everyone’s highest good. Thinking gently of you…

    • Yes, most definitely. My wife and I understand that this was an essential lesson for us both to grow, on top of forcing some very serious issues to be brought to the light. All five of my children need and deserve justice, as there was perpetration from adults that need to be brought to justice. Many of us in the world suffer greatly, and there is too much lack of interest in all of humanity. We hope to change that, by shedding light on what is happening in our great country. thank you for taking the time to read!

  5. Honored that you are following my blog. May it be of help to you. May God’s grace continue to be with you.

  6. Interesting blog perspective… I’ll be following along.

  7. Thank you for liking “Rusty”…great job, yourself here! ~ Sea

  8. This is horrific, and too wrong. How can the ex be “happy” now she has done this. How does that get called happiness?

    I am mortified for you, and sincerely wish I could do something – hire you a lawyer.

    There was a case in the last 6 months an African American who had been in solitary confinement DECADES and no lost his mind, was declared innocent, and died soon after release from a brain tumour or something (sorry, I can’t recall the facts, just the import) and that was tragic, tragic. JUST UNFORGIVEABLE.

    I can’t believe you’ve been put away yet did not “do it”. Well no, I can – by that I mean I can’t believe this still happens. I am truly, deeply sorry.

    Please know from my heart, I wish to reach you and if only I could, give you and your wife comfort. You found happiness, and this embittered someone so horrifically, she damaged all in her path. She has taken the children’s father from them. Where is the logic in that. Sincerely, Noeleen (Australia)

    • Thank you for reading…it was his liver, btw. He was supposed to be freed until a re-trial, and then the prison came back the next day to take him back, and he died, at least a free man.

      See, if there’s a re-trial that means you aren’t guilty yet, so should be freed unless another jury finds you guilty. But, the prison can keep you in between the next trial, moving you to the jail where the event occurred, another horror after at least settling in a certain prison for years.

      The state considers you guilty until proven innocent in the US. Thank you for caring to read; there is such a stigmatism created by propaganda so that citizens won’t question judges, the DA’s and other lawyers’ actions; it is no man’s land in most of our prisons.
      And, yes, with 1 in 88 Americans, some of whom are minors, it does happen, so that officials can enjoy their salaries, unless you can pay someone off.
      prayers are always welcome, and God is in control.

  9. Next time you see him, tell Chicano I’m rooting for him. For whatever that’s worth.

  10. Your voice counts, a small wave reaching for air in a sea of injustice. I, too, had a relative who did time in NC prisons. Now out, he still bears the felony like a weight dragging down his idea of himself and his viability in the world. At the time, and since then, I have wondered how our experience can be used redemptively. What you are doing is taking that action.

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